It's Tuesday, it's raining, I'm at work -- all is right with the world..? NOT!
I can't seem to shake this icky, sort of melancholy feeling I've had lately. I hate it. Its disturbing to say the least. I guess part of it is that I have a bunch of things hanging over my head and they are weighing on me. Heavy, heavy, heavy. UGH.
Add to that the fact that I'm not eating right, so my sugar is up and my energy is down -- thankfully my weight is holding steady. The forum migration went ok but we are still ironing out glitches..........and I have GOT to do something to break out of this mood because, quite frankly, enough is enough already.
I took yesterday off and it was great to be home and tend to some things, like going through PILES of paperwork, picking up my daughter's car from the car doctor, organizing some of my son's school papers (included writing checks for school pictures and boxed supplies for next year), doing ALL the laundry in one day (YAY!), etc. You'd think with those accomplishments I'd feel great. Not so. Came down with a HORRID headache last night and couldn't wait to get in bed. Slept well, woke to rain.
Read a few of my favorite blogs this morning which should make me feel good, but, well, sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes I see everyone's pretties and I feel so unaccomplished, so unproductive.....and I see new tools (yay LISA!) and I'm happy for them, cuz I loves me some new tools too (and indeed, I recently received the SAME letter stamps!)...but then I get that twinge of, yep, I'm gonna say it - tool envy, jewelry envy, everything envy. And then I feel like an ungrateful something-or-other. So, one thing I can do to start to bring this around is to share my gratitude.
I am, by nature, a thankful person and normally a glass-is-half-full person - so firstly, I am thankful that the good Lord created me that way and that God continually opens my eyes helping to keep me that way. I am thankful that these episodes of whiney-woe-is-me-life-is-hard-I-feel-icky-might-as-well-go-eat-worms don't come very often.
I am so utterly thankful for my family and friends. I am thankful Lord that I am financially stable, especially in today's economy. I am thankful to be where I am today.
Today that is about all I can firmly say without feeling hypocritical.....without feeling the need to edit.
Oh, oh, OH. And I am thankful that today is Tuesday - because if all goes even slightly as planned - I get bench time tonight!!! YAY!
Happy Tuesday all! Here's hoping you all have a great day and go forward with an attitude of gratitude.
Everyone gets a bit down every now and then. It won't last though. Your work is beautiful!!
ReplyDeleteOh and I know the lure of new tools!! Have had to resist lately due to unemployment, but hey, a girl can dream.
I'm so sorry you feel bad! We all get that way though. Happens to me alot!
ReplyDeleteJust know that you have always been an inspiration to me and a lot of other folks, and mostly because of you, and JAN, I am where I am today with my jewelry.
Things will get better!
Oh boy, I can identify. I felt this same way a month ago. This too shall pass my friend.
ReplyDeleteWe all have these days and they seem like they will never end but they do. Your work is so beautiful and I bet bench time tonight helps a bunch!
ReplyDeleteOh Janice, how could you do that?? I mean, you cannot usurp my title of "Ms. whiney-woe-is-me-life-is-hard-I-feel-icky-might-as-well-go-eat-worms"? Is this why I had become friends with you? That one day you will steal my throne from me? Tsk tsk tsk (and then some more tsk-ing).
ReplyDelete:-))) I know that despite how you are feeling, you also know that this is a phase, and will pass. It always does. Nothing ever stays the same, right? And thank God for that! LOL! This too shall pass.
All you can do during a phase like this is, don't try to fight it. Its somewhat like quicksand. The more you struggle, the deeper you sink. What works for me (try it if it feels right for you) is to acknowledge to myself I'm feeling this way, then I tell myself, alright, lets see how low I can sink...lets dive deeeeeeep in. Somehow this last statement never works...I mean when I intend to dive deeper into gloom, it just doesn't happen. LOL! But my statement to dive in is what that stops the downwards motion. And after saying these things to me, I just get busy doing something I like doing...usually jewelry, or sometimes a really neat romantic comedy (I am a hopeless romantic), or any feel good movie...a trip to the local ice-cream place and a few servings of my favorite ice cream in the world...and anything else that can keep me busy for a few days. The gloom vanishes somewhere when I am not thinking of it and NOT fighting it actively.
And also it helps to think how many people love you. ((((hugs))))
Thanks all!!! I know it will pass - it always does. . . its nice to be able to just be honest though and its nice that you all are here to commiserate and help brighten my day! :) I really am very thankful that it DOES pass, all of it - the good, the bad, the ugly....nothing stays the same. Deep down I have a constant peace - that remains - always...even when things on the surface are icky. You know the poem - God grant me the serenity. Its like that - God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time;
ReplyDeleteAccepting hardship as the pathway to peace. raking, as He did, this sinful world as it is,
not as I would have it. Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His will; that I may be reasonably happy in this life, and supremely happy with Him forever in the next.
Amen!!!
God WILL make all things right. I believe that. I believe each day is new, God's mercies are new each day....all things will work together for a bigger and better purpose than I know! I have such a TINY piece of the picture. Which is good, cuz if I had more, I'd just mess it up. ;-)
((HUGS!!)) all and really - have a GREAT Tuesday!
ok, sorry for the tupos - wish I could edit my comment!! its TAKEING, not raking! lol
ReplyDeletetupos = typos.
ReplyDeleteDamn, I should quit now. I think cutting my fingernails may have been a mistake!
Welcome to the world of the completely creative - we have incredible joys and highs, and mind numbing lows and sadness. Fortunately the latter rarely sticks around long, especially if we give in and create. So get your butt into your studio tonight and play, play, play!! Oh, and while on the list of things to be grateful for - I am truly grateful for JAN and for you for creating such an amazing place to meet like-minded beings!! HUGS!!
ReplyDeleteUgggg! Look its completely 'normal' to feel like that - its part of the up/down cycle of life. Just go with it and you will rise out of it soon. Don't force being creative etc - just make sure you get enough sleep, eat properly and maybe watch some movies. Try and relax and it will get better soon - promise.
ReplyDeleteAnd hey - a bit of tool envy never did anyone any harm! I reckon envy is a form of appreciation...
Take care of yourself Janice.