Tuesday, August 10, 2010

you awake?

Well, are you?

How do you know?

That seems like a no-brainer, right?

Of course you're not sleeping!

You're sitting somewhere.

A plane, a train, a car. Or maybe in your kitchen, cubicle @ work, or a coffee shop.

You have a computer.


You're THINKING (thinking what the heck is this girl talking about..) and so OBVIOUSLY you are awake.

But are you really?

I mean, not, are you really AWAKE, but

are you

REALLY awake?

Or are you going through life asleep?

Sort of going through the motions each day, one day turning into the next - many much the same as the one before.

I don't know but I think I've been sleepwalking (again). I'm pretty sure I've done it before although no one has ever said anything about it.

See, My son and I watched Percy Jackson, The Olympians the other night.

Fun movie for a 9 year old boy.

At one point on his quest, Percy and his friends enter a casino in Vegas and are eating lotus blossom treats. Little do they know that they treats are lulling them into a sort of semi-conscious state of sleep.

They are awake, but not really aware. They are enjoying life (like REALLY enjoying life) but they are blissfully (?) unaware of the world around them and how time is passing. In a sense, they are sleepwalking. They spent 5 days in the casino and thought is was hours.

And it hits me.

I sleepwalk too.

There have been times in my life where I 'wake up' and am surprised by where I am or what I'm doing, but more than that, I'm surprised at what I HAVEN'T done.

And I think - WHOA, how'd it get to be August? Or the end of summer? Or when did my boy turn into a young man?

Or dang, what DID I have to eat for lunch today?

Silly, it was a fruit salad.

Orrrrrrrrrr, was that yesterday? (ok, so I'm raw and in all likelihood, its every day. but you get the idea)

of course, it could just be that I'm getting old.

But time flies by at an alarming rate, and sometimes, quite frankly, I think I'm missing it.

In the movie, Percy hears his father's voice coming to him and it gently nudges him awake.

So he can get back to the task at hand, so he can APPLY himself towards his goal.

I need to get back onto the task at hand, move consciously towards my goals.

How about you?

helloooooo, You awake?